Esoteric Journal

Esoteric: designed for & understood by the specially initiated alone; belonging to a circle initiated in such teachings. 

Greetings SpiritFriend:

Welcome to our Esoteric Journal. If you are familiar with the written expression of my spiritual work, you are aware that I advocate Esoteric Journaling. If you are not yet initiated, I invite you into the circle, provided you enter with pure intention and a thirst for Truth. We do not discriminate here - all persons of all ages, creed or color are invited to participate in circle - because as part of Original Source - we are All One.

Before proceeding: Be aware that I find no desire or necessity to travel the dark side. Those who are not seekers of the Light will be better served by another teacher.

Let’s Establish Purpose & Parameters:

If I were a writer of the cookbooks, for example, would I not taste-test recipes before putting them in a book? Yes! Therefore, be assured that I test all of my teachings before committing them to the page. So that in “The Book” and “Begin to Remember”, when Esoteric journals were part of “the work”, I assigned myself the same topics.

Now, I am curious to know what happens when the books are finished? From where does your inspiration come? An answer is simple.

What if we continue the imaginary circle we created in “The Book”? I propose to assign topics in one post, which I will work along with you, and in the following post, I’ll share what I have written in my own Esoteric Journal.

Does this spark your interest?

Let’s Begin:

For those who are not “veterans” of Esoteric journalling, this form of writing differs from personal journals. I suggest you contemplate about the current topic and then have a little tete-a-tete with Spirit. When you are ready, write out your insights and understandings in your Esoteric Journal before proceeding to my post on the subject. 

Tip: Please do not attempt to analyze or compare my writings with yours. There is no right or wrong “answer”. We all have unique insights, and I am open to receive your general questions, comments and suggestions. We learn, we teach and we learn from those we teach. I expect to learn from you and, in turn, I hope you will find our circle rewarding. Please know you are safe here.

In attempt to keep our enviornment user-friendly, here are certain parameters: I am not licensed to practice medicine, so that I cannot answer medical related questions; I am not inclined to dabble in specific matters of the heart and I am not available for a romantic connection.

As a certified Master of Life Guidance Counselor, I am committed to helping all who genuinely seek Spiritual guidance find their path with heart.

I trust you will receive many Truths as a result of our Esoteric Journalling. Our first assignment is: Giving & Receiving.

And so it is,

Bonnie

Greetings SpiritFriend:

I’m being very orange today! To work, I wore orange pedal pushers (does anyone know why we call them that?) & a bright orange, soft cotton top, with huge navy blue flowers. Orange stimulates activity & I knew I had to be quite active at work.

Once in a great while, writers write something that causes them to stand back & say with objectivity, “Did I write that?”

I shall continue to feel this way about my favorite chapter in “Beyond Blue” - “What Color am I?” By employing chromotherapy (healing with color), we learned to identify our perpetrators & diffuse their power.

Because I wrote “Beyond Blue” to my dear children, children of all ages, creeds & colors, I necessarily had to stay on task and relate color to past abuse. But there are a plethora of ways to incorporate color healing into our everyday lives.

Like our favorite foods, color can offer “comfort & joy”. For example, when you are blue, wear blue or cuddle up in a blue comforter. Blue acts like the mesmerizing ripples in a lake to calm those blue emotions.

Need a job? Need to make a great impression at a business meeting? Put on that red power suit & you’ll be the picture of confidence.

So - you get the job - or the new love interest. A new beginning calls for white. Like the writer’s blank page, pristine white offers a do-over. A clear fresh start.

When your spirits need perking -up, wear sunshine colors. Yellows & golds let the light into our souls.

Back to the boyfriend & job. When either require a spark of creative energy, wear orange. Be orange. Orange will jump-start your creative juices & sensuality.

As a non-conformist, my favorite color is purple. Whenever you want to stand out in the crowd, instead of blending in, wear purple. Purple is the color of royalty of royalty & riches! It is also of a high spiritual nature.

When you wish to practice attracting abundance, drape a purple scarf around your shoulder & the message you send out to the universe will manifest in your everyday reality.

THE ASSIGNMENT

Take a look around your home and “see” what colors you live with. Day in & day out. Let color magic speak to you. Are your colors drab & boring? Take your time & one room at a time, add colorful accents. Think the 3 P’s - paintings, plants & pillows.

What color(s) do you wear more than others? What can you do to add more happy colors? How about adding colorful jewelry or scarves? As your finances permit, you can begin to purchase more colorful clothing.

Think in color. Journal about it in your Esoteric Journal. Be color. What color are you?

If you have questions about a particular color, leave a comment & I’ll be intuitive yellow & answer you.

and so it is,
Bonnie

Greetings SpiritFriend:

Do you get unbelievably excited to discover something which is new to you, but originated in antiquity?

I know I do!

Having studied the ancients for 11 years now, until today I didn’t know that actual bottles existed for tears.

During Roman times, glass bottles of tears were put in burial tombs to show respect. Furthermore, professional mourners were actually paid to cry in the vessels.

In the Victorian period, the bottles were made with special stoppers that permitted the tears to evaporate. When there were no more tears, the mourning time was over.

Today, tear catchers are gifted to symbolize EMOTIONS. Respect - Love - Joy - Compassion - Condolence, and so on.

I also know that as an abused child, if I’d been a professional mourner, I’d be rich with money today.

and so it is,
Bonnie

Greetings SpiritFriend:

Creator made us perfect. We knew that when we came into this world. Think back to your childhood. Do you remember how creative and confident you were? For instance, let’s suppose you wanted to make a sand castle. You thought about it - it needs a million billion rooms, you decide. When you’ve finished, you stand back and admire your work. The end result may be a lopsided, one-roomed thingey that looks more like a shotgun shack than a castle. But you were totally satisfied because you made it.

That is how Creator views each of us. Perfect the way (S)He made us.

Somewhere along the way, our creativity and self confidence generally gets conditioned right out of us. Even if we’re not abused, we are brainwashed into believing that from this day on, we must strive for perfection in all areas of our life.

So our to-do lists consume several pages, we work on a memo until the grass grows 3 inches, we color our hair, our nails, we try to keep up with the Joneses. In short, we try to do it all - perfectly.

We have set unrealistic expectations for ourselves and invite stressful situations to happen. We blame ourselves when we don’t measure up.

Human perfectionism is not a positive attribute. We are already perfect spiritual beings.

Starting today, try to be easier on yourself. If you don’t have a small child, check one out for the day from a friend. Have fun. Play. Let the child lead you. Give yourself permission to remember the innocence and creativity you have forgotten.

You are a shining star. Keep sparkling.

and so it is,
Bonnie

Greetings SpiritFriend:

Universal Law: our mental attitudes shape our future.

Big, positive, generous mental attitudes attract big success.

Whatever our attitude - destructive or constructive - we translate those thoughts into physical reality.

Put your attention on this: to love and serve people is our greatest value.

The positive and negative act like a two-sided coin in our mind, and are equally as strong. By our mental attitude, we attract success and happiness or poverty and despair.

WHAT YOU CAN CONCEIVE & BELIEVE, YOU CAN ACHIEVE.

I did not originate this concept. The many deep thinkers, which walked this earth before you or I did. You have likely heard or read it before.

You must have a burning desire for exactly what you wish to attract and be ever alert for opportunities when they provide themselves.

A great self-motivation tool is memorization. Memorize this: Whatever my mind can conceive, I believe I will achieve.

Memorize your daily affirmations. (You have written them, haven’t you?)

Designate your power key word. A word or short phrase that will motivate you to reach higher. Try on some words until you have a perfect fit. For instance, love, money, risk taking. This word, when repeated over and over, becomes an auto-suggestion to sub-conscious mind. Sub-conscious mind will see to it that what?

Right - Whatever my mind can conceive I (my sub-conscious mind) will achieve.

THE ASSIGNMENT

Answer the following questions on a fresh journal page.

What high goal do I have a burning desire to achieve?

Am I willing to keep it in mind daily? To practice my positive mental attitude about it?

What talents can I develop to help me achieve my burning desire?

What am I willing to give in order to best serve humanity?

Do I have the courage to aim high?

Do I believe I am worthy of _____________?

CONCEIVE IT! BELIEVE IT! ACHIEVE IT!

and so it is,
Bonnie

Greetings SpiritFriend:

Successful attainment of authentic love with another person is dependent upon first loving one’s self.

To connect with the deepest love, that genuine love, a love comparative with our consciousness level, we must build a strong foundation of self-esteem.

Stand-up for yourself! Commit to yourself! Honor yourself!

Do these things and miracles will manifest into your everyday reality.

Practice the following affirmations, preferably in front of a mirror:

I love myself, just the way I am.
I am worthy of authentic love.
I honor myself.
I attract real relationships.
I claim goodness, which is my Divine Right.
I love myself.
I love.

and so it is,
Bonnie

Greetings SpiritFriend:

Face emotional pain.

Stare it down.

Learn from it.

Move right along.

Emotional pain is very REAL. When it is allowed to fester, this kind of pain will manifest in our physical bodies as pain/disease.

Don’t fight emotional pain. Don’t deny it. Simply allow, acknowledge and address it. Writing out the pain in our Esoteric Journal is an excellent way to begin.

Emotional pain creates negative energy. Negative energy vibrates at an extremely low level.

When esoteric students begin their work, painful emotions will bubble to the surface. As they raise their consciousness level, the pain must be addressed. Old wounds must be healed or we remain virtual victims.

and so it is,
Bonnie

Greetings SpiritFriend:

We began the journal with giving & receiving. It is time to revisit giving. We cannot be reminded enough to give, give and give some more.

The highest form of giving is when the gift is given without expectation, perhaps, even anonymously. The giver does not need or want anything in return.

However, when we give expecting to receive, we will be disappointed. This form of giving is, in fact, manipulation of energy. Esoteric students must never manipulate another person’s energy. Actually, esoteric students must never manipulate energy until they have worked with a wise mentor, for a very long time.

Giving simply to love our neighbor sets a great power in motion with rewards beyond imagination.

We do not necessarily have to give money, or material things. Instead we can give ourselves! Our talents, our encouragement, our mentorship, our time, our company to the lonely. Can you think of other gifts that do not cost money?

Give with a joyful heart! Keep the blessings flowing!

and so it is,
Bonnie

Greetings SpiritFriend:

Our word today is “conditioning”. You have heard me refer frequently to conditioning.

Children are like little sponges - soaking up what they see and hear. Until they are at an age to become free thinkers, they are subject to conditioning.

Know this: The influences & teachings of key people in your life shape your thoughts, feelings and actions.

A crucial part of knowing yourself is the stripping away of false conditioning, such as prejudice, judgments, blame & shame. I’ve no doubt you can think of others.

Before we can release harmful conditioning, we must identify the true from the false.

THE ASSIGNMENT

A word of caution: this assignment is not to be entered into lightly. Take good care to use all the time necessary. Be true to yourself.

1) Begin a list of people who are/have been influential in your life. Parents, teachers, preachers, good friends, etc.

2) You will creatively visualize an interview with these people Select one of them and prepare a list of questions that you want them to answer. Ask heartfelt questions, using intuition as your guide.

3) Take the most dominate person from the list to begin with. It will likely be your mother or father.

4) Go to your safe place and visualize them sitting across the table from you.

5) When you are ready, begin.

6) DO NOT proceed to the next influence until you are satisfied with your answers/results, even if you must interview the same person several times.

Here are a few helpful questions to get you started:

What is your view on world conditions? religion? sex? money? work? Were/are you happy? Why? What were your biggest fears & disappointments? Achievements? Why did you say …? Why did you do…?

7) When you are finished with each person, thank them, appreciate them.

8) Write insights in your Esoteric Journal that occurred as a result of the interview. Do you share their points of view? Why or why not? Was this person primarily a good or bad influence? Why? What negative influence that resulted from their conditioning are you willing to change? How?

Until you recognize & change negative conditioning, you will not know and express your highest potential. As you grow in higher consciousness, you will know a freedom like you could only dream of!

and so it is,
Bonnie

Greetings SpiritFriend:

After you have worked on your abstract affirmations to your satisfaction, you are ready to affirm your material desires. (However, do not discard your abstract affirmations. Practice them from time to time.)

Pose this statement in your Esoteric Journal - “What I really want is…”

Take your time and decide upon the one thing that you really want. Something so dear that you possibly haven’t admitted it even to yourself.

Now, give yourself permission to plant the seeds of a positive intention. Knowing that you deserve this thing you really want.

THE ASSIGNMENT

1) Settle on the one thing you want to manifest.
2) Describe it in specific words in your Esoteric Journal.
3) Write one sentence stating your desire in the present tense (as if you already have it).
4) Copy your intention/affirmation on several index cards and post them in conspicious places, such as the bathroom mirror, the refrigerator, your computer at work, the sun visor in your car, etc.
5) When you get up each morning, repeat the intention at least 10 times. See it, believe it.
6) Throughout the day, using an index card as a visual reminder, repeat your intention.

Put your heightened energy on your intention. You are instructing your subconscious mind to focus on manifesting it. When the subconscious is convinced, it will direct awesome opportunities and helpful people your way. It has no other choice!

and so it is,
Bonnie